never.ending.love.for.you_____x.

Sunday, March 12, 2006

wat happened to mi nowadays...
can anyone tell mi the correct definition of friends???
wat r friends for???
the one who will always be there for u???
and the one who u can share all ur feelings and secrets wif???
or the one who will share ur secret wif other ppl???
just to exchange some stupid info???

pls!!!!
tell mi...
should we trust our friends???
esp. our best friends???
should we??
i feel so unsecure when im wif u...
now...
im wondering...
should i continue to trust u??
should i tell u all my secrets???
should i???

i feel sooooooooo sad now...
but...
no one i can turn to or talk to...
i dun trust anyone now...
i dare not trust u now...
friendship means nothing to mi liaoz...
i will learn my lesson...
i shouldnt trust my friends...
esp. those who r very closed to mi...

from now onwards...
i think i should keep everything to myself...
no matter how hard it will be...
but at least...
i can make sure tt...
my secret wonts reveal to third parties...

maybe i should learn to be strong again...
learn to hold back my tears...
its sooo hard...
but yet...
i still need to pretend im strong infront of all the ppl...
it feel soooooooooo terrible...

now i know y i always pretend to be strong...
coz i scare to be hurt...
hurt by my friends...
hurt by my best friends...
maybe im actually the weak one...
all i know is pretend...
pretend to be strong...
pretend that everything is ok...
pretend that im fine wif everything....
im really a loser...
darling pls save mi...
u r the only one i can trust now...
i need u!!!

s t i l l . l o v i n g . y o u
10:33 PM

days had passed
hours had sliped away
every second seems like an agony for me
since the day you left.

your face
your smile
your care
and your everything
keep flowing through in my mind.

i think of
the moments we shared
the days we spent together
the sweet memories we had.

i wish we can be like before
i will be waiting for you
right here waiting for you.

______heart to heart talk______



me_______
` XiaoXin
` Apple Dear Dear
` 20th June
` Sweet 15
` RVHS
` 1Extraordinary o5
` 2Extraordinary o6
` RV Netball
` Proud to be a Goal Shooter
` Naughty
` Spoilt
` Crazy
` Fat
` Lame
` In love aka Attached
` juejuejuejuejue@hotmail.com
` specially4someone@hotmail.com

Loves

-* Basketball
-* Teddy Bears
-* Computer
-* Mp3
-* Apple
-* Star
-* Heart
-* Cute Stuff
-* Doggy
-* Pink. Black. White
-* Shopping
-* Converse
-* Herself
-* Whoever Loves Her

wishlist______
-* more nice clothes
-* pinky clothes & skirts
-* a new hp
-* more miniskirts
-* billabong wallet
-* pinky nike water bottle

-* pinky nike shoe bag
-* slim down
-* a real doggy
-* get good results
-* everyone around mi happy
-* fulfill all wishes

______links
Ah Ying ~~ Stranger
Albert ~~ Lame Guy
Bernard ~~ Basketball Guy
Cher
Dawny ~~ Ex-best friend
Eddy ~~ my chairperson
Erica ~~ Ex-best friend
Fiona ~~ Strawberry Shortcake
Iverson ~~ Super Super Best Friend
Jia Min ~~ Mrs Phua
Jun Jie ~~ PeiWen's guy
Lai Seng ~~ Zoey's Guy
Li Xin ~~ Netball gal
Madeline
Mildred ~~ WenJie's gal
Min Ee ~~ Np gal
Pei Wen ~~ JunJie's gal
Qin Yu ~~ Netball Gal
Netball Blog
Reen ~~ Ex-best friend
Shu Fang ~~ Mrs Phua
Shao Wei ~~ Dance guy
Shu Yi ~~ Ex-best friend
Stacy ~~ Chang er
Victoria ~~ Mushroom gal
WenJie ~~ Mil's guy
Yan Ting ~~ Ex-best friend
Yi Hui ~~ Leon's gal
Yu Neng ~~ Camp leader
Yu Neng (music blog) ~~ Camp leader
ZhiYing ~~ Netball Gal
Zoey ~~ LaiSeng's gal cum sister
2Extra Boys ~~ Lame Guys
2Ordinary Girls ~~ Diaoz Gals
2Extraordinary blog
2Extraordinary Forum
their birthday

-* 17th Jan ~*~ ShinZu
-* 18th Jan ~*~ Grace
-* 21st Jan ~*~ Min Ee

-* 11th Feb ~*~ Zoey

-* 3rd Mar ~*~ Jia Min
-* 11th Mar ~*~ Edmund

-* 6th May ~*~ Hui Ling
-* 6th May ~*~ Iverson

-* 17th June ~*~ Li Xin
-* 17th June ~*~ Zhen Xi
-* 20th June ~*~ My Birthday
-* 24th June ~*~ Pei Wen

-* 11th July ~*~ Jun Jie

-* 22th July ~*~ Qin Yu

-* 10th Aug ~*~ Zhi Ying

-* 20th Oct ~*~ Vicky
-* 23th Oct ~*~ Mark
-* 23th Oct ~*~ Mildred
-* 23th Oct ~*~ Shu Fang
-* 24th Oct ~*~ Shi Xiao

-* 7th Dec ~*~ Yi Hui